Big Sister says i've always been a little pest

why does my Beautiful Big Sister think i'm such a pest? well, i suppose it's because i'm needy and sometimes I can be totally whiny and annoying. i completely admit it. i'm in need of attention, approval, acceptance...and my Beautiful Big Sister Helena has always given me these things (in measure), but of course only when it's convenient or otherwise useful to Her, and only if I’ve been a good boy and done everything She’s told me to do.

I’ve always loved doing little things for Her, all the time, and like a silly little schoolboy with a crush, i would come rushing to bring Her what She had asked for, or to let Her know about the completion of a task, and She'd send me off with little more than a "good boy," a pat on the head, followed by, "now go away, pest."

sometimes if i was being overly annoying and needy, She'd have me close my eyes (no peeking - and i swear i never disobeyed), She'd step out of Her panties, and hand them to me. She knew that they'd keep me occupied, and that if She sent me off with them and told me to stay in my room and out of Her hair while She was with one of Her girlfriends, or Her boyfriend, that i'd obey. and no matter how badly i wanted to go spy on Her and Her boyfriend out in the den making out on a friday night with a scary movie in the background, I would stay in my room, tucked under the covers with my Beautiful Big Sister’s pretty pink panties hugging my little sissy bottom.

and that would be that. and i would be eager to fulfill any request She had. i'd do Her chores for Her at home. i'd bring Her and Her girlfriends things, always trying to catch glimpses of Them in Their nighties when She'd have sleepovers, and yet i was always that little pest of a brother, always in Her way.

the truth is that now, even as an adult, i'm still that little pest of a brother, and She can still hypnotize me with that same act: dangling a pair of Her panties in front of me like a pretty pink cotton pendulum.

and so i'm still kept on taks and out of the way. i do my best to keep busy in ways that will most benefit Her. i come over at the drop of a hat to come clean Her place on a friday night while She's out with one of Her girlfriends or boyfriends. i'll do what i can for Her during the week, running errands, or online working on all sorts of tasks for Her.

and that's how my Beautiful Big Sister Helena likes me: busy working for Her and doing Her bidding, so long as i’m of Her way. after all, She is quite busy, very popular and high in demand. She doesn't have all the time in the world to spend with Her little pest of a sissy brother.

but that doesn't keep me from wishing i could spend more time in Her presence.

Goddess Helena, my Beautiful Big Sister in all Her beauty:

my Beautiful Big Sister has been gracious enough to allow me to share Her photos.

images of Her need no words; they speak for themselves.

if you wish to know more about Her, you may visit Her profile at the Den of Iniquity in los angeles: http://www.doila.com/helena.html

Her personal website will be coming soon.

My first post in Her honor

Goddess Helena is a professional Domina in Los Angeles and in my fantasies She has become my Beautiful Big Sister.

She is indeed beautiful...and intelligent, wicked, strong-willed, perverted, creative, full-figured, dominant, buxom, shapely, dark-haired, fun, open-minded, experienced, powerful, hirsute, sadistic, shapely, curvaceous, independent, genuine, big-bottomed, full-lipped, gorgeous, authoritative, manipulative, erotic, sweet, invasive, caring, probing, giving, generous, cruel and loving. all at once.

Her influence over me in such a short amount of time and over such a distance has become so powerful that She has easily manipulated me into keeping a blog as both a tribute and honor to Her beauty. i am all too happy to comply and to give my absolute best effort in honoring Her this way.

my blog in tribute to Her will be written in a very specific manner. i will write as Her pathetic little sissy brother who has been completely infatuated with Her since boyhood. Beautiful Big Sister Helena is 100% aware of and amused by Her little brother's perverted and incestuous feelings, and She uses this knowledge to fully control me and use me to fulfill Her whims. She certainly loves me, but She'll never love me the way She would a real Man.

first and foremost, She has made it a point to keep me in panties since i was perhaps 8 or 9, i don't recall exactly when, but i will never forget that day after school, third grade i think, when She held Her worn panties open for me to step into. i have been Her pathetic little sissy of a brother since.

now i'm 34, and while i do not live with Her, i do keep house for Her, toiling away to keep Her place neat and tidy and clean. i hand-wash Her worn panties and all of Her delicates with the greatest of care, item by item, one at a time, giving each individual article of Her undergarments the care and devotion they deserve.

She keeps me in chastity and milks me in a no-nonsense and clinical manner on a weekly basis, purely for health-related reasons. on occasion, if it fancies Her, She will allow me to masturbate or otherwise ejaculate for Her in a very humbling, embarrassing and pathetic sissy-like manner.

all my life i have been under Her influence, and She has always made it a point to discourage me from dating or having any serious relationship. as a result of this, i am a rather inexperienced boy, and a virgin to boot, in that i have never had penile/vaginal intercourse with a Woman.

you will learn more about my relationship with Goddess Helena, my Beautiful Big Sister, as time progresses and i add to my blog.

while i will indulge in fantasy, both the past (childhood incidents and life-forming events under my Sister's control) and the present (my continued fascination with and service to everything that is Beautiful Big Sister Helena), above all else, this will be a tribute to Her and Her power over me.

until the next time, praised be Goddess Helena, my Beautiful Big Sister.